Side Effects, Self-Doubt, and Trusting the Process

I had my first ADHD medication follow-up, which comes with the usual “is this working or am I just aware of everything now?” energy. We increased the dose, no big dramatic moment. Except… life had other plans.

Right as my energy was starting to level out, a nasty sinus infection showed up, brought my asthma along for the ride, and sent me on a tour of urgent care. So now we’ve got antibiotics, steroids, and a new ADHD dose all happening at once. Naturally, my body is tired while my brain feels like it should be sprinting laps around the house. Rest sounds right. Running a marathon also sounds right. Make it make sense.

The frustration has been real, because before I got sick, the medication was working. That gives me hope. I know once the illness meds clear out, I’ll get a better read on whether this new dose is the right fit.

For now, I’m choosing to trust the process. I’m giving myself permission to slow down, to rest without guilt, and to offer myself some grace. Healing isn’t linear, medication adjustments take time, and right now my only real job is to listen to my body, even when my brain is yelling contradictory instructions.